Mecklenburg XIX

(Found here)
Begun 9/21 4:51 p.m.

1801. How many Smurfs can you name? I was going to say zero, but isn't there a Papa Smurf?

1802. Do you keep track of your life using a planner or calendar book? Not a book. Everything's online nowadays. Twice, in some cases.
Would you be lost without it? Hell to the yeah!

1803. Have you ever fully eradicated a bad habit that you had? I'm sure I have. Today, right now, I can't think of anything.

1804. Where do snowflakes come from? ...the... sky ... ?

1805. What do these latin phrases mean?
Et tu Brute: Literally, "And you, Brutus?" meaning, "I can't even trust my best friend not to LITERALLY STAB ME IN THE BACK!"
Congito ergo sum: I have no idea. "coGito ergo sum" means "I think, therefore I am" but maybe the question as stands is "I can't spell, therefore I am"?

1806. You're writing a story.
The super hot (guy or girl?): George
is about to kiss (who): Julia
Just then they get interrupted by (what): a New Year's Party
and somebody screams, (what):" " Help!
but it is too late. Fortunately (who): Cher
walks by and does something (what): throws rocks
and they all live (how): determinedly
ever after.

1807. The radio is playing U2, The Defects, Echo & the Bunnymen, The Pointer Sisters, Staubkind, and Dr. Dre. on different stations. Which band are you most likely to listen to? U2 given those options. There are two I don't recognize, two I can't imagine listening to on the radio, and I'm no into the 70s right now.

1808. How do you feel about the tsunami that killed over 100,000 people in December 2004? I'm not a fan. It's sad.

1809. What is the difference between madness and brilliance? About a millimeter.

1810. Write any random sentance here: God, please help this poor person learn about spell-check.

1811. Say the sentence you wrote out loud. Did anybody answer? Not out loud. Hopefully, elsewhere it's had effect.

1812. Turn on your TV if it's not on already, what channel is it? TNT.

1813. If you were to hit redial on your phone right now, who would it call? The last number I used was the local Walgreen's, but I hung up before I talked to anyone because I answered my own question. Before that, the last person I talked to was at my doctor's office.

1814. Hit edit paste on your browser and paste the last thing you copied here: I'm not going to paste it. It's part of today's journal entry on my husband's CaringBridge page. Basically, it's that when I left the hospital today, he was pretty sacked out and the doctors had said stuff.

1815. Miracle on 34th street, original or remake? Frankly, I'd rather watch paint dry.

1816. Have you ever been in a parade? Yeah, one or two, she says very drily.

1817. Why don't people just walk up to each other and become friends? Because some people are psychopaths and they look perfectly normal.

1818. Do you turn the base up all the way in your car (or would you if you had a car) and blast the music? I, uh, can't turn up the base, and it wouldn't have much affect on the music. I don't turn up the basS either.

1819. Do you care if what you do annoys others? Well, to a point, yes.

1820. What keeps you from being happy? Circumstances.

1821. If you could go back in time and talk to yourself five years ago what would you say to yourself (You can only stay in the past for FIVE MINUTES so make it COUNT!)? "Get Beast in treatment, or get him out of the house. Either way, he needs more help than anyone knows."

1822. Write a surreal (Having an oddly dreamlike quality) sentance: "What if I raplacad avary instanca of the sacond vowal with an A?"

1823. Can you talk for one hour without using the word 'like'? Nope. I also tend to "overuse" the words, "a", "and", and "the."

1824. Shall I compare thee to a summer's day? Sure. But only if you can out-poet Shakespeare.

1825. Say something nice about:
yourself: I'm hopelessly loyal.
me: I don't know you, so that's rather difficult.
your dad: He was a funny guy, mostly--almost always--unintentionally.
your mom: She was focused on the long goal for most of her life, though I'm not entirely sure what that goal was.
the one you love: He's about as bull-headed as anyone I've ever met, and he's going to need that trait in the next weeks and months.

1826. Questions from random movies:
Why is it that a fly can't bird but a bird can fly? Because English didn't develop that way. Yet. If you want to walk around getting people to say that flies bird, eventually maybe it'll start being a thing.
You know what people are liking at night? If they are anything like me, it's sleep.

1827. What is your favorite movie that Denzel Washington has been in? I have to be honest: he could stand in front of a camera reading the phone book and I'd be there.

1828. What websites are addictive to you? Yes. All of them.

1829. Who do you love so much that you would clean live maggots out of their garbage pail just so that they didn't have to? Why in the hell would I do that? I can't imagine needing to do this, but it wouldn't be the worst thing I've ever done.

1830. Who do you think will read all 5,000 of your answers to this survey? I haven't the foggiest if anyone reads these at all.

1831. Out of everyone reading your diary, how many people know your first name?

1832. When you die and your tragic story is a human intrest spot on the news will you want your friends and family to say you were the greatest smartest and kindest person ever...or tell the truth? I hope they don't do a human intErest story on me. And I'd prefer people be honest.

1833. Have you filled out an organ donor card? Yup.

1834. Who do you never want to end up like? Our President.

1835. How many oxymorons can you think of? "Jumbo shrimp." "Military intelligence." The whole concept that a small drink at Starbucks is called a "tall."

1836. How many years old is your diary? I have diaries from when I was about 10. If you mean this blog, 13 or so years.

1837. How could today get any worse? ...oh, let's just not even go here, k? A great deal could get worse; it always can, even when things are already in the dumper.

1838. What will you never ever do again? Take for granted being married to a healthy person.

1839. What's the most terrible lie someone could tell you? What I have discovered in the past week is that no matter how bad the lie, there is part that you might want to be true. This is not comforting.

1840. Would you ever wear vinyl pants? I'd really prefer not to. I was wearing a plastic apron most of the morning, and it was super-sweaty.

1841. What was the last thing that you printed out? Beast's med list.

1842. What would you say to Flavor Flav if you saw him walking down the street? I would seriously wonder WTF he's done in my neighborhood because he ... uh, wouldn't find it particularly conducive to his art.

1843. What are you dependent on? God.

1844. What do you look forward to each day? Sleep.

OK, I'm done at 5:34
9/22/17 @ 6:47 p.m.

1845. What did you think of the Columbine shootings? I try very hard not to, though I've done a great deal of reading on it. Terrifying. It's not the loner, "weirdo" kids we need to worry about, folks! It's ALL the kids, even the "normal" ones.

1846. Did you take lessons as a kid? What? I took piano as a young kid, probably ages 7-8. I then took flute from 7th-12th grade. I had a swim class too, but that was (literally) the only class I ever ditched 90% of the time.

1847. What's the best song to listen to after a break up? I have no idea. I'm avoiding all the mushy songs this week, though I did get through some old Styx songs on Wednesday with Beast in the hospital.

1848. The radio is playing Poison, INXS, the Psychedelic Furs, Dio, and Matchbox 20 on different stations. What do you listen to? Given those specific options, INXS will always be my first choice.

1849. Do you know what it's like to take care of someone else? ....uhm, yeah.

1850. Would you rather take care of someone or be taken care of? I feel that I'm better at taking care of others at this point, but it would be delightful to be able to drop everything and let other people take care of me for an extended period.

1851. What is the worst 80's song in your opinion? There's a lot of dreck from that period. It sort of depends on my current mood, but generally anything by Mariah Carey is going to make that list.

1852. What song makes you so happy that just want to dance and dance and DANCE? Pretty much everything from Bruno Mars. He's good at Happy, Dancey tunes.

1853. What has been your most beautiful magical memorable cloud nine manic ecstatic incredibly happy bouncy air-light moment of this life??? Most of those revolve around Sparky: his birth, his college graduation, various times when he's surpassed himself in different ways. My wedding day, maybe?

1854. According to Depeche Mode, "Everything counts in large amounts." According to the Crow, "Nothing is trivial." Do you believe this is true? I do believe that nothing is trivial, and I really do think that everything we do matters at some level.

1855. Are you enjoying this thrilling luscious roller coaster ride of a life as much as I am? Well, not so much this week. In general, yes, but this week has been rough.

1856. Do you know how improbable it is that life exists at all? Yes, I am absolutely aware of the miracles that surround us every moment of the day.

1857. Are you kind to strangers? I'm from the midwest: of course I am!

1858. Do you go out of your way for other people? I'm kind of paid to do that... but I do anyway.

1859. Make a promise: I promise that I will get to bed early tonight.

1860. Will you keep it? I certainly hope so--I feel like death.

1861. What do you think of the author of this survey? I don't know anything about the author, beyond that it's someone with a lot of free time.
What's my gender? I'm going with female.
What's my age? I'm going to guess over 25.
What bands do I like (you must have SOME idea by now)? Heh. Lots of alt-rock from the 80s and 90s.
Anything else?? I got nothin'.

1862. What makes something "literature"? Also, what makes something "art?" It's in the eye of the beholder. Quite often people tell me about books they love that I either just don't get the attraction at all, or not so much ("I mean, it's ok...."). But there are also things that pretty much everyone agrees is crap: EL James, I'm looking directly at you.

1863. Why are you even doing this survey?? Doesn't it TELL you something that you have NOTHING BETTER TO DO than fill out a 5,000 question survey??? I do this to relax and debrief from life.

1864. Has answering these questions been a learning experiance for you (writing them certainly has been for me)? It's been interesting. I didn't think people could spell so many words so weirdly.

1865. Have you ever been so happy you could cry? All the damn time. Had a brief moment of that today when Beast actually tracked me with his eyes for the first time this week.

1866. Do you know that the one you love is the one you will spend the rest of your life with?? I don't know about the rest of my life...I'm not even sure if he has a rest of his life either.

1867. Have you ever asked yourself, 'Is there any more to life than this?' Fuck, yeah, fuck.

1868. What did you answer yourself? "Stop being so damned melodramatic, woman!"

1869. Do you let the restrictions of society restrain you? Sure. Better to have a modicum of self-control, eh?

1870. Or are you just too full of life to be stopped?? Sure, because that's reality.

1871. We are spinning on a bright blue bulb that is bursting with life. How could you possibly feel alone? Sitting in ICU listening to machines beep will get you started.

1872. Is there something you'd like to try? For sure.

1873. What makes your heart smile and your skin get all tingly-ish? Baby giggles.

1874. How long has it been since you danced the night away? I don't think I've ever done this.

1875. Are you willing to do EVERYTHING POSSIBLE to get the most out of life? Don't take this personally, but FUCK RIGHT OFF, RIGHT NOW!

1876. Are you willing to give the very best most beautiful part of yourself to the world? I do, I have, I'm trying, I'm tired.

1877. Is there love in your heart? Usually.

1878. Do things tend to go your way more often when you're happy? It may be rather the opposite.

1879. What do you do while everyone sleeps? Sleep. I'm kind of weird that way.

1880. What is one thing you will you never ever ever get any more of? ... I'm not comfortable doing "never" right now.

1881. What's your favorite short story? There are a few Stephen King stories that are simply outstanding, including one about a portapotty in Florida....

1882. Have do you feel about beauty pageants? Hate 'em.

1883. If it ain't broke (say anything but 'don't fix it'): ...maybe it should be.

1884. What is your favorite DIY related website? (mine is probably http://www.homeofthesampler.com) I don't hang out at DIY sites; I only look up what I need to fix.

1885. Do you bruise easily? Not particularly.

1886. In William Shakespeare's play, "All's Well That Ends Well," the character Parolles makes an interesting speech about virginity, saying that "Virginity by being once lost may be ten times found; by being ever kept, it is ever lost...To speak on the part of virginity is to accuse your mothers; which is most infallible disobedience...virginity murders itself; and should be buried in highways, out of all sanctified limit, as a desperate offendress against nature. Virginity breeds mites, much like a cheese; consumes itself to the very paring, and so dies with feeding his own stomach. Besides, virginity is peevish, proud, idle, made of self-love, which is the most inhibited sin in the canon. Keep it not; you cannot choose but lose by't..." What do you think of this? I think Parolles has some deep-seated issues about sex and women who do (and do not) put out.

1887. Would you prefer to stay in a motel, hotel, inn, lodge, or resort? I don't care. Somewhere that encourages amnesia.

1888. Have you ever gone scuba diving? Nope. That would be foolhardy in the extreme.

1889. What kind of bread do you like? Oh honey, I will eat virtually ANY kind of bread, except probably zucchini bread.

1890. Do you usually behave the way you want to? I try. Often I have the best of intentions and the worst of implementation.

1891. How does the idea in your head of what you want to be like match up to the reality of what you are like? I haven't the foggiest idea. Perhaps you should compare what I say with what someone else says about me.

1892. Do you realize that in 111 questions this survey will have more questions than there have been years since Christ was born? Yay, math.

1893. Are your air and water as pure as you want them to be? Nope.

1894. Would you ever visit an insect zoo? Nope.

1895. Can you enjoy life without stimulants (coffee, cigarettes, drugs, alcohol)? I don't drink coffee or smoke. I rarely drink. I don't take drugs except for those prescribed by doctors, or approved for use OTC.

1896. How many hours do you sleep every night? Not enough. Never enough.

1897. Is this survey your Friday or Saturday night date? Pretty much.

1898. I go crazy when I'm without _______. ...something to read

1899. Can you do the robot dance? Nope.

1900. How much thought do you put into your dance moves? Thinking and dancing do not really tend to go together. Or rather, they use very different parts of my brain.

1901. Are you able to recognize patterns, habits, routines and break out of them? I hate being in a rut, but I'm also very aware that my life is full of them.

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