what keeps you going? what makes your heart beat?
what are you most passionate about?
I hate questions like this, because I feel like one of those fly-by-night, targeted-attack people; my 'passions' tend to share a lot of characteristics with my temper. They boil up rapidly, overflow with a lot of noise and action, and then fade away just as rapidly.
Having said that, and having spent a couple of minutes looking back over my life, I guess there are some touchstones in my life:
Friends--I can't live without them. Seriously. I don't know everyone in town like some of my friends. I don't need to spend hours each week talking on the phone with any of them, but without them I am bereft. It's worse than a romantic breakup, really, to lose a friend.
Family--I gripe about my 'family of origin' a great deal, but they are the only people who know where I came from, who have known me forever, who understand some of the dynamics. As the youngest, I know that it's likely I will outlive all of my siblings and some of my nieces and nephews, too. That's a sucky prospect to look ahead to, and even worse is the fact that I'm liable to lose both my mom and a second sister within a couple of years of each other, within the next four or five years. I think I've been mentally preparing for this every since it occurred to me a few years ago. Middle age, the time when mortality becomes obvious.
Faith--OK, I was exaggerating when I said I couldn't live without friends. The times in my life when I've been the most down, the most distracted, the most distant from "living," are the times when I've also been the most distant and distracted from my faith. I truly can't imagine life without the bedrock of my faith. I know if I lost this, I'd lose everything.
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