Feasting

It's Friday, so here goes:

Appetizer
When was the last time you visited a hospital?

About an hour ago.

Soup
On a scale of 1 to 10 with 10 being highest, how ambitious are you

Ambitious in my career: maybe 7
Ambitious otherwise (the way my mom uses the word): 2

Salad
Make a sentence using the letters of a body part. (Example: (mouth) My other ukelele tings healthily.)

Totally inebriated bison ignore antelope. [This was the first thing that popped into my head....]

Main Course
If you were to start a club, what would the subject matter be, and what would you name it?

How to Be Positive When Everyone Around You is F*ck*ng Miserable. Just a little group therapy action, eh?

Dessert
What color is the carpet/flooring in your home?

Downstairs it's neutral beige wool. Up the front steps and upstairs it's pale blue (although Sparky's room is a deep green--Go Pack!). Down the back steps it's industrial green.

Back to my actual dinner of onion rings and Culver's concrete.

Fall

You Are Changing Leaves

Pretty, but soon dead.

What Part of Fall Are You?

How cheerful. Bring it on.

3-D

You Are Balanced - Realist - Empowered

You feel your life is controlled both externally and internally. You have a good sense of what you can control and what you should let go. Depending on the situation, you sometimes try to exert more control. Other times, you accept things for what they are and go with the flow. You are a realist when it comes to luck. You don't attribute everything to luck, but you do know some things are random. You don't beat yourself up when bad things happen to you... But you do your best to try to make your own luck. You have a good deal of power, but you also know the pecking order. You realize that working the system does get you further. You know who to defer to and who to control. When it comes to the game of life, you play things flawlessly.

The Three Dimension Luck and Power Test

Yeah, right.

Actually, this isn't too far off the mark....

5 favorites

From here...

We all have people we admire, both people we know personally and "famous" people who have influenced us profoundly.

Who are your top 5 "favorite people"? And not just people you wanna shag (although sometimes that factors in there, too!) but people who have influenced you, made you who you are today, for whom you have utmost and total respect? They can be living or dead. Famous or not. Go!

Here's my 5:

1. Jesus
2. Martin Luther King, Jr.
3. My dad
4. Mary Wollstonecraft
5. Eleanor Roosevelt

OK.

Q time

from Shelly (nice, new site!)

1. Name someone with the same birthday as you?

I'm picking Nadia Comenici, because I actually remember knowing that at some point in my life.

2. Where was your first kiss?

Ron R (although he was Ron M at that point) at the 8th grade Christmas dance. He was kissing everyone (because he was wearing mistletoe).

3. Have you ever seriously vandalised someone else's property?

No. Why would I?

4. Have you ever hit someone of the opposite sex?

Depends on your definition of hitting. I used to hit my brother when he was 20 and I was 10 and he was picking on me. I used to 'punch' the Beast in the stomach when we were dating, to prove how strong his stomach muscles were. I've been known to swat Sparky.

5. Have you ever sung in front of a large number of people?

Yes. Sunday School, multiple times, as a teacher.

6. What's the first thing you notice about the preferred sex?

Face: eyes. General: height, hair.

7. What really turns you on?

Kindness. And humor. And brains. In any order.

8. What do you order at Starbucks?

Their caramel apple cider rocks. I was just thinking about it yesterday: a good side of winter!

9. What is your biggest mistake?

Too many, too many. Probably all caused by my temper and my big mouth.

10. Have you ever hurt yourself on purpose?

No. I'm pain-averse.
Unless you count childbirth.

11. Say something totally random about yourself.

My lunch today is cold pizza (cheese) from Sunday, and strawberry-cheesecake yogurt. And water (or Dr. Pepper).

12. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity?

Yes. Not recently. But I do look like everyone's acquaintance: "Aren't you....?" "No."

13. Do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows?

Of course. They're rarely as good as they were when I was a kid, though, except Wiley Coyote.

14. Did you have braces?

Yes. Two-plus years of torture, including having teeth pulled so there would be room in my mouth for my teeth. I even wore my retainer. Briefly.

15. Are you comfortable with your height?

Yes. I like being tallis, except when I don't want to be noticed. I still hear my dad's voice in my head telling me to stand up straight and never to be ashamed of my height.

16. What is the most romantic thing someone of the opposite sex has done for you?

Beast's extravaganza last month, and lots of other things he's done over the years.

17. When do you know it's love?

"When did I? Uhm, when I seriously realized that I hated not dating him.

18. Do you speak any other languages?

I understand and read most Spanish, and can even speak if I try hard enough. I can read some French, and less German and Russian. Does Latin count?

19. Have you ever been to a tanning salon?

No, I like being cancer-free, thanks.

20. What magazines do you read?

Real Simple, Entertainment Weekly, Guideposts, Ms., some of Sports Illustrated when it's lying around... I've cut way back.

21. Have you ever ridden in a limo?

Yes. With my mother-in-law for her 60th birthday. On the way to/from the airport a couple of times.

22. Has anyone you were really close to passed away?

My dad and my sister, within two weeks of each other.

23. Do you watch MTV?

I used to be a closet "Real World" and "Road Rules" junkie, but now it's all about sex, drinking, and being ridiculous. The rest of the channel is a joke, too.
Does anyone watch it?

24. What's something that really annoys you?

Rude people. Mean people (even though I always think of that saying "Mean people suck" and roll my eyes) who are mean just to be mean. Liars.

25. What's something you really like?

Sleeping.

26. Do you like Michael Jackson?

I like his music. I think he's a nutjob, though.

27. Can you dance?

I think so, but I'd like to take some dance lessons and find out. I'm really a klutz, though, so it would be very entertaining!

28. What's the latest you have ever stayed up?

In college I spent every Trivia Weekend awake most of two full days. It only was awful my senior year, because I tried to "sleep ahead" and ended up being tireder instead.

30. Have you ever been rushed by an ambulance into the emergency room?

No. Thank God!

31. Do you actually read these when other people fill them out?

Most of the time. Unless the answers are all novellas.

Whew.

Power!!

Your Animal Personality

Your Power Animal: Eagle Animal You Were in a Past Life: Whale You are active, a challenger, and optimistic. Hard-working, you are always working towards a set goal.

The Animal Personality Test

OK then.

M*A*S*H

OK, I can work with that, I guess. I have the glasses.

My sins

You are Sloth!
What it is:The 4th worse of the sins. It is lazyness...basically not doing anything for yourself.
Punishment in Hell:Thrown into snake pits.
Animal:Goat.
Color:Light Blue.
Demon:Belphegor.

Which Of the 7 Deadly Sins Are You?
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But, oh, aren't I cute?

Evil-ometer

How evil are you?
So much b*llsh*t.

Harry Potter

Your Years at Hogwarts by nevermindless
Name:
The Sorting Hat places you in:	Ravenclaw (Blue and Bronze)
Subject you are naturally best at:	Charms
Your favorite book:	Which Broomstick
Pet you bring to school:	Silver Tabby cat
You are most known for:	The weird animals you try to keep as pets.
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Quickie

1. Ice cream or Yogurt? Ice cream
2. What's your favorite board game? Trivial Pursuit
3. Do you play video games? If yes, what game system(s) do you use? No, because I know that’s all I’d do all day if I started.
4. If you were given a chance to change your name, would you do it? If yes, what would your new name be? I’d probably go back to using my “maiden” name. But not until Sparky got done with school. It’s confusing enough now!
5. What are the last 2 blogs that you've visited? Please share the links with us so we can check them out. Shelly’s Malt Shop (where I got this meme) and Matthew (I am his antithesis in every way, except that we work in libraries).
6. What's your biggest frustration? My self.

Food

You Are Italian Food

Comforting yet overwhelming. People love you, but sometimes you're just too much.

What Kind of Food Are You?

It must be true: no matter what I change my answers to, this is what I end up with!


[I thought the title of this was "What kind of FOOL are you?" Oy.

Sexy

You Are Boyish Sexy You're the kind of girl who gets along with all the boys Whether it's holding your own in a game of touch football... Or kicking some major butt while playing Xbox. You hang with the guys easily, while still keeping your girly sexiness. What Kind of Sexy Are You? Take This Quiz :-)Find the Love of Your Life (and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance.

And how ironic is it that I wrote this recently: "I spent my teenage years absolutely terrified of boys. Really, painfully shy and terrified. It's weird, because when I was a little kid most of my nearby neighbors were boys and we got along fine."

By the way, no touch football, but yes to volleyball or frisbee or pickle.

Seductive

Your Seduction Style: Sweet Talker

Your seduction technique can be summed up with "charm." You know that if you have the chance to talk to someone... Well, you won't be talking for long! ;-) You're great at telling potential lovers what they want to hear. Partially, because you're a great reflective listener and good at complementing. The other part of your formula? Focusing your conversation completely on the other person. Your "sweet talking" ways have taken you far in romance - and in life. You can finesse your way through any difficult situation, with a smile on your face. Speeding tickets, job interviews... bring it on! You truly live a *charmed life*

What Kind of Seducer Are You?

Yeah, ok. This was good for a hoot, but it couldn't really be less useful, or more inaccurate.

Amy said it better.

Boyische? Girlische?

You Are 20% Boyish and 80% Girlish

Even if you're not a girl, you're very feminine. You're in touch with your feelings, and your heart rules you. A bit of a emotional roller coaster, one moment you're up and the next you're down. But no matter what, you try to be as cute and perky as possible.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

It's that gun question that did it for me, I suspect.

As for cute and perky, would someone use the gun on me if those adjectives come to mind about me. Please.

Hump Day

I haven't done one of these in ages, but here goes:

Today is "Board Game Appreciation Day". You know the drill, so let's get to humpin'!

01. If you were one of board games sold in stores (past or present), which one would you be and why?

I'd say it's a tossup between "Clue" (as in "get a ...") and "Trivial Pursuit."

02. Ever played Monopoly? If so, do you have a favorite property, block of properties and which token is your favorite? For your convenience -- a list of tokens (old & new): iron, purse, lantern, race car, cannon, boat, thimble, shoe, top hat, rocking horse, dog, wheelbarrow, horse and rider, sack of money.

Favorite properties: The orange ones (St. James Place, Tennessee Avenue, New York Avenue). I just like the color and the location on the board.
Favorite token: I like the hat and the iron (we lost the bag of money ages ago). It's probably easier to list the ones I don't like: any roll-y ones or ones that fall over.

completely off topic: this page is potentially a sign of someone's insanity, or lack of a life, or math assignment.

03. Create-A-Board-Game: Create a board game based on your life. Describe it. Here's some features you might describe. What would it be called. What might some of the playing pieces be? What would be the object of the game?

I'll start at the end: not losing your mind is the point of the game.

It would look a lot like "Life," with twisty paths leading everywhere (a la "Snakes and Ladders") but with lots and lots of places to completely get sidetracked in little cul-de-sacs for extended periods of time. There would be components that involved embarrassing oneself beyond the pale, just like in real life, and also places where you could advance just because you've had a really crappy run of luck.

The rules would have to be baroque and--this is important--different for every player and liable to change at any minute so that all players would have to trade rulebooks because of some bizarre rule.

Maybe it could be called "Confused Yet?"

Asleep

What Your Sleeping Position Says

You are calm and rational. You are also giving and kind - a great friend. You are easy going and trusting. However, you are too sensible to fall for mind games.

What Does Your Sleeping Position Say About You?

Doesn't this sound too good to be true, from one question?

This may be closer to truth:

What Your Sleeping Position Says

You are secretly sensitive, but you often put up a front. Shy and private, you yearn for security. You take relationships slowly. You need lots of reassurances before you can trust.

What Does Your Sleeping Position Say About You?

Or maybe not. [[shrugg]]

Really, what my sleeping position says lately is "You're sleeping wrong and in retaliation we've decided the spine won't be showing up for work today."

My life as a movie

Saturday 8

After you write a best-selling novel about your life, you've just sold the movie rights! Congratulations! You have complete control over casting, so tell us which celebrity (or well-known person) will play the following roles in your life's movie... and WHY you choose them to represent the characters in your life. Remember, they don't have to be actors, just well-known.

1. you?

Joan Cusack, or Catherine O'Hara

2. your love interest?

Lyle Alzado, or Randy Gradishar--in their prime; or Brett Favre

3. your best friend(s)?

Meg Ryan, Rita Wilson, Rosie O'Donnell, Anne LaMott, Grace Jones, Katherine Hepburn (in her prime)

4. your nemesis?

Janice Dickinson

5. your immediate family (including grandparents/in-laws)?

Paul Newman, Joanne Woodward (parents); Don Cheadle (brother); a young Lynn Redgrave, Diane Lane, Martha Stewart (sisters); Betty White, Jackie Gleason (parents-in-law); Philip Seymour Hoffman, Tom Wopat, Hugh Laurie, Jason Lee--as Earl (brother-in-laws); Jennifer Garner, Jennifer Love Hewitt, Claire Danes, Tori Amos (nieces); Freddie Prinze Jr., a young Marlon Brando, Fred Savage, Chris Martin (nephews) Sparky (Sparky--that was his answer when I asked him)

6. your boss/supervisor?

Dame Judy Dench

7. your mentor (or teacher)?

Letty Pogrebin

8. neighbour(s)?

Paul Rodriguez (father and son), Sarah Jessica Parker, Geoffrey Rush, Russell Crowe, Winona Ryder, Tom Hanks, Mandy Patinkin, Meryl Streep, Olympia Dukakis...

Morals

Your World View

You believe that morality is another word for common sense and suitability For you, morality is not something which is universally valid or a religious truth. You would rate reliability as one of your virtues. On the other hand, you are conventional and unimaginative. You are also something of a prude. You are likely to have problems with your love life.

What Is Your World View?

This was a tough call to get this answer.

It could just as easily have been:

Your World View

You are a fairly broadminded romantic and reasonably content. You value kindness and try to live by your ideals. You have strong need for security, which may be either emotional or material. You respect truth and are flexible. You like people, and they can readily make friends with you. You are not very adventurous, but this does not bother you.

What Is Your World View?

Neither are particularly accurate.

This is why I flunked Values Clarification in school.

So I'm late; sue me

From the Friday Feast (a day late):

Appetizer
Do your closer friends tend to be male or female? Why do you think that is?
I spent my teenage years absolutely terrified of boys. Really, painfully shy and terrified. It's weird, because when I was a little kid most of my nearby neighbors were boys and we got along fine. Anyway, formative years being what they are, ALL of my best friends in jr. high and high school were girls. In college, same thing, except for the Beast. I married him. He is my Very Bestest Friend, but all of the rest of my friends are women. I do have guy friends, but there's always some 'weirdness' component going on there and I don't necessarily feel like I can bare my soul with most of them. I'm not as afraid of them anymore, though, just confused.

Soup
If you could wake up tomorrow with a new talent, what would it be?
Able to roll with the punches that life throws at me: Absolute Zen.

Salad
Name a household cleaning item that you would recommend to others.
A cleaning product? OK, I don't 'do' cleaning.... Let's see....
Well, we always spray that after shower stuff when we're done showering. It does seem to help cut down the amount of scrubbing necessary to keeping the surround ick-free.
I do love CLR because it absolutely dissolves ANYthing.
Bleach. I'm doing the soaking thing with all our dishcloths today because they've turned that disgusting-but-nameless color. They never look clean, even just out of the washer.

Main Course
What do you strive for in life?
Today, I'm striving for a pain-free back/shoulder area. Short-term goals.
Long-term: contentment, finding God's purpose in my life, a good relationship with my immediate family members, and as much traveling as I can stuff into my schedule.

Dessert
On a scale of 1-10 with 10 being highest, how funny do you consider yourself?
On a good day: 9
On a 'normal' day: 6
Midwinter: -3

Cool

Carole Lombard You scored 19% grit, 23% wit, 38% flair, and 30% class!

You're a little bit of a fruitcake, but you always act out in style. You have a good sense of humor, are game for almost anything, but you like to have nice things about you and are attracted to the high life. You're stylish and modern, but you've got a few rough edges that keep you from attaining true sophistication. Your leading men include William Powell, Fredric March, and Clark Gable. Watch out for small planes. Find out what kind of classic leading man you'd make by taking the Classic Leading Man Test.

I can live with that. She married Rhett... er, Clark Gable after all.

Giggly viruses

from Jenica:
Human Virus Scanner
The virus that have infected you will be show here along with thier cures, if known.

Viruses you suffer from:

Junkfood
Eat some real food. Something which you can identify the source of every ingredient, not the point of manufacture.

Religion
Read "God's Debris" by Scott Adams (yes, the Dilbert guy)

Politics
Stop caring!

Environmentalism
Consume more stuff! It's easier to buy new stuff than to recycle.

Viruses you might suffer from:

Pokemon (60%)
Pikachu! Use your hyper-electric-get-a-life move now!


USA (70%)
Rule, Britannia! Britannia rule the waves! [repeat]

Japan (60%)
Big is good. Small is bad. Giant robots would not make a good last line of defence for Earth.

Discordia (60%)
Buy a suit. Invest your money. Eat hotdog buns on a friday.

Brand Names (80%)
Having a well-known name doesn't make it good.

Computer Games (60%)
Stop staring at the screen and get some fresh air. You should see a doctor about the RSI in your thumbs.

Conspiracy Theory (95%)
Face it, the elected government is in control. Actually that's quite scary.

Hippyism (65%)
Free love is passe and potentially dangerous, and patchouli smells like cat piss.

Inner Child

Your Inner Child Is Scared

Like a kid, you tend to shy away from new experiences. You prefer what's tried and true - novelty is scary! New foods, new places, and new friends are difficult for you to deal with. Some say you're predictable, but you enjoy being comfortable.

How Is Your Inner Child?

Er...what? Half of one sentence is right.

So you think you know your friends...

1. IF YOU COULD BUILD A SECOND HOUSE ANYWHERE, WHERE WOULD IT BE?
Colorado, somewhere near Ouray. No surprises there.


2. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE ARTICLE OF CLOTHING?
Jeans. I don't have one favorite pair, but if they've been broken in, they are 'favorites.'


3. THE LAST CD YOU BOUGHT?
It's been awhile...Switchfoot?


4. WHAT TIME DO YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING?
Around 6 on weekdays. But now that school has started, I'll probably be backing that up a bit. Weekends I just try to sleep in. It doesn't usually work.


5. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE MOVIE?
"Heathers"


6. IF YOU COULD PLAY AN INSTRUMENT, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
If I could just {poof} *know* how to play without practicing, it would be a string instrument, probably cello. I really should start back with the flute. And piano lessons wouldn't be such a bad thing either!


7. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE COLOR?
Blue.


8. WHICH DO YOU PREFER, SPORTS CAR OR SUV?
Of those two, probably sports car. I do like the way a Porsche rides. But really, I like my little mini-truck, and I wouldn't mind a real Jeep (i.e. a Cherokee), but none of these "fake Jeeps" that are everywhere.


9. DO YOU BELIEVE IN AFTERLIFE?
Yes.


10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CHILDREN'S BOOK?
Laura Ingalls Wilder's books, and the Narnia series. Does Harry Potter count?


11. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SEASON?
Fall.


12. IF YOU COULD HAVE ONE SUPER POWER, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
The power to understand the implications of each act before doing anything. Shorter version: the power to see all the possible futures. But then I'd go nuts a la TNG.


13. IF YOU HAVE A TATTOO, WHAT IS IT?
I've seen too many old tattoos, so I've managed to avoid coloring my skin.


14. CAN YOU JUGGLE?
Like actual ball in the air? No. Like all the different hats I wear? Sometimes. (thanks for the hint, Jen)


15. THE ONE PERSON FROM YOUR PAST YOU WISH YOU COULD GO BACK AND TALK TO?
That guy, freshman year in college, that I was too mortified even to apologize to after saying stupid things to him while blitzed outta my mind on cheap champagne.
And, my sister.


16. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE DAY?
Monday.


17. WHAT'S IN THE BACK OF YOUR TRUNK?
I have a truck. Nothing in the back except the webbing (I should post a picture of it...). Behind the seats, I have jumper cables, a bag of sunflower seeds, probably an empty pop bottle or two, a my-car-stinks-nice thingy, and an ice scraper.


18. SUSHI OR HAMBURGER?
I tend to prefer my formerly-alive food to be cooked: hamburger.


19. FROM THE PEOPLE YOU WILL EMAIL THIS TO, WHO'S MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND FIRST?
Since I'm not emailing it....uh, maybe Amy?


20. WHO'S LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
I'm not sure who lurks regularly, so I can't name names. But you know who you are!


21. WHO DID YOU RECEIVE THIS FROM?
Jen.


22. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE FLOWER?
Natural: roses, preferably the kind that actually have a scent.
From a store: I'm not fussy.


23. DO YOU BELIEVE IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT?
I used to. Now, I'm not so sure. I think there is a certain kind of chemistry between people that sparks immediately and can't be explained. Unfortunately, sometimes it's bad chemistry. But, I do believe that good friendships happen this way.


24. WHAT WOULD BE YOUR DREAM JOB?
I would like to catalog fulltime instead of putzing around with all the crap on my desk currently. Oh, well. Yeah, I have my dream job.
Or maybe work in a refugee camp in the Sudan.


25. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE MEAL?
Tortilla Chicken soup (crunchy tortilla strips, please), Garlic Caesar Salad, Pasta with pesto sauce, and cheesecake (plain, but it better be the smoothest damn stuff).

Superhero

Your Superhero Profile

Your Superhero Name is The Wonder Bulk Your Superpower is Abnormal Brain Function Your Weakness is Handshakes Your Weapon is Your Fungal Crowbar Your Mode of Transportation is Rainbow

What's your Superhero Name?

This frightens me beyond reason, perhaps because I do think the Superpower thing is spot-on. The rest? Not really so much.

Falling in love

How You Are In Love

You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often. You give and take equally in relationships. You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time. You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change. You are fickle and tend to fall out of love easily. You bounce from romance to romance.

How Are You In Love?

Uh, no. Except the italicized bit.

Princely

You Are Somewhat Machiavellian

You're not going to mow over everyone to get ahead... But you're also powerful enough to make things happen for yourself. You understand how the world works, even when it's an ugly place. You just don't get ugly yourself - unless you have to!

How Machiavellian Are You?

OK, but I'm not sure I'm exactly "powerful."

Mmmm?

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This is scarily close to feeling true. Thanks, I think, Jenica.

Me. All of me

from Amy:

How to make a Cataloger

Ingredients: 3 parts success 3 parts brilliance 1 part beauty

Method: Add to a cocktail shaker and mix vigorously. Top it off with a sprinkle of curiosity and enjoy!

Username:

Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com

Oh, but of cawse! {insert hair flip here}

Unconscious...

I say ... and you think ... ?

Julie:: Where not to dig.
Emotional:: Whirlwind
Head of household:: Census-takers
Diva:: Elton John
Devastation:: Hurricane
Business or pleasure:: Trip
Crown:: Royal Crown soda
Eastern:: Time zone
Buzzed:: Beer
Officer:: Krupke

Early Monday morning

How did I miss these...? But, thanks Amy!

Your Fortune Is

If you run into your ex on the street, just shift into reverse and keep going.

The Wacky Fortune Cookie Generator

...AND...

What Your Underwear Says About You

It's important that your underwear doesn't offend anyone - in case you get in a car accident. You're comfortable in your own skin - and don't care to impress anyone.

The Underwear Oracle

Okey-dokey...

My brain....works?

Your Brain's Pattern

You're a simple thinker, and this is actually a very good thing. You don't complicate matters when you don't have to. You look for the simplest explanation or solution, and you go with that. As a result, your mind is uncluttered and free of stress.

What Pattern Is Your Brain?

Uh....ok.

Or not.

Blog color

Your Blog Should Be Blue

Your blog is a peaceful, calming force in the blogosphere. You tend to avoid conflict - you're more likely to share than rant. From your social causes to cute pet photos, your life is a (mostly) open book.

What Color Should Your Blog or Journal Be?

OK, no cute pet photos, though...

I could post my pet photos, but I probably won't.

Band Name

Your Band Name Is

The Amish Cafeteria

Band Name Generator

V. appropriate, but I doubt anyone would buy the CD.